I started this blog with a pseudonym but now, I take it back. I’d rather be nameless than be a thief of names of sorts. I’m not old or wise. I am no genius, no prodigy. I know just about nothing about politics and I’m no great literary artist. So you probably don’t want to be reading this right now.
About me… Well, that would be the point of this page. I’m a thinker. I wonder about the sky, so transparent yet… so full. I wonder about me, what will I be like when I’m 30? 50? 90? Would I even last that long? When will I die? How will I die? I even think about that woman in the grocery store with the three small kids; where is her husband? What will she make for dinner today? Who will her children grow up to be-Lincoln? Einstein? Shakespeare? I am a pakka dreamer. I fly kites in bright colors all over the sky, hoping that someday they will reach somewhere. Sometimes, the string breaks and sometimes, new ones are added- each leave me with something, maybe a cut on my finger and maybe a pat on my back.
I love to dance, sing, draw, act, say speeches, write stories, listen to music.. the list goes on and on. One of those kids, signed up for every activity and every competition there is. And that’s a problem too. I really don’t have one particular passion. Everything, here and there. One day, I want to be Shobhana, the next, Arundhati Roy.
I’m from India but I’m not living there right now. Kerala is truly God’s Own Country but I can’t dare say I am one of His own. Sometimes I feel like I want to live back there and yet more often, I feel like a stranger there too. I think it was Arundhati Roy who once mentioned something about being a citizen of the world. In that case, that’s what I want stamped across my passport. This world. I am its citizen.

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May 6, 2007 at 12:16 am
Hawk
Have enjoyed reviewing your site. Very interesting so I have taken the liberty to add it to my own blogroll.
June 26, 2007 at 1:43 am
Jack
Hi,
Its really curious that you are really anxious about death, the most sure thing in life. What ever else happens, the one thing that a living man can never deny is that he is born and the eternal truth is death.
The curiosity to future, including death turns out to be the burning desire to live, most of the time, like you.
But there are exceptions. I had a friend who madly longed to experience death. He didnt want to die, but he needed to experience death. Many times he tried to taste death. Once in Dhanushkodi, next time at Suicide point .. many many times. At last he himself injected the minimum amount poison required to death to his nerves. But he couldn’t restrict himself from crossing the limit. We got a two page writing about death till blood clotted in his head.
Just an experience to share and think. May be horrible. but i didnt mean it.
Your blog and thumbnail sketch is good. Keep your explorations active.
Best
October 13, 2007 at 6:39 pm
Shaji
Hi,
A great description of yourself. Very genuine. I love the scenery in the beginnining of the page. That takes me somewhere far away with it.. a very serene place. I will try paint that picture.
Take care
November 13, 2007 at 9:25 am
sudeesh
great…..
this is one word i can use to describe your self description it takes courage to think the way you do..more tell it out open..
good if you wanna get answers for your unanswered questions ..just try writting them down to me..(if you don mind)
well there is someone here who can ….may not help you but atleast guide you to something new!!!
take care
January 10, 2008 at 11:44 pm
anees
nice writing.. keep it up, keep writing..
all d bet
lol
ani
January 22, 2008 at 8:05 pm
Devu
Nice writing
Keep writing…………
Devu
February 27, 2008 at 3:51 am
bibomedia
Have a nice day !
March 22, 2008 at 5:23 am
Ani
neee oru “puli” aaneddiiii moleee
April 14, 2008 at 12:56 am
Dipil Kumar
I came across this site while searching for the lyrics “Ithramel enne nee snehichirunnenkil”. Just go through your page. Seems good rare and fantastic. May GOD bless you to reach into your goals. Wish you all the best and a Happy Vishu too as today its the starting of a new year. A good day come in touch with you.
Bye bye… Take care…
With Lots of Love & Prayers,
Dipil
April 21, 2008 at 1:10 am
Sujith
Good…
Ithramel enne nee snehichirunnenkil
Enthinu neeyenne vittakannu
May 6, 2008 at 1:10 am
Initial-M
Nice blog
June 21, 2008 at 4:36 am
Nitesh Ambuj
Nice about me section.. and yeah Kerala is really a beautiful place… I hope you have heard.. Janani-janma-bhumischa Swarga-dapi-gariyasi..
July 13, 2008 at 1:06 am
sandeep
“Living in an Asylum – chromatic views on my monochromatic life” – good one
August 13, 2008 at 11:42 pm
n i t i n
Nice blog…I loved it..
Keep writing…
and oh..I just blogrolled you!!
nitin
August 18, 2008 at 11:10 pm
dinu
good to see u
August 19, 2008 at 3:32 am
Shoban
Interesting post!!!
September 10, 2008 at 6:00 am
appu
Nice and interesting posts
keep writing…
appu
November 25, 2008 at 2:16 am
Oommen T Alex
Hi,
All of a sudden, when I was searching for the lyrics of Dhukhethinte panapathram your site opened on the monitor. I felt like crying when I went through it as it was as if I am seeing a mirror. My dear we keralites who are compelled to be in an asylem away from our beautiful land all feel like you. Even though I was very busy today I thought it is absolutely necessary to react about this reflection of mine. Please go ahead with your mission ( I feel it is a mission) All the very best in your life.
Oommen T Alex( Your elder brother( as I am 49 now)
November 25, 2008 at 11:02 am
Euphonical
there goes your “chromatic views” in to my blogroll…….
superb articles….. waiting for more……….
thanks!
July 21, 2009 at 2:26 am
rakesh
nice. keep writing.
August 24, 2009 at 12:26 am
Arpit
Thanks for comments on my blogs, but most of them hypothetical situations & stories…
No love stories for me…
And loved your blog too; will add it to my list
Best regards.
September 9, 2009 at 4:00 am
Anu
I randomly came across your blog and I must say I saw a complete reflection of myself in all your posts… all that i wanted to write has been written by you…..its jus amazing to see somebody write everything that has been running in your head…being brought up in a dfferent country myself I have the same views you have of kerala…Anyways not being a good writer myself ..it feels fabulous to see your exact thoughts written by somebody else…tat too in such a fantastic way…Keep it going…and have a good life ahead
October 22, 2009 at 11:21 pm
Shiva
Hello, Hi!. Nice of you to comment upon a beginner’s blog. And your about me is far better than any of my writings.
Good luck
Shiva
October 23, 2009 at 7:35 am
ariyathe
Thank you! But I doubt the last statement. =]